#taroteveryday: Navigating Through My Shadow

I have a feeling my reading with the Four of Cards spread the other day is going to follow me for quite some time. On my way out to errands I drew some cards as tarot guidance for the day with the Slow Holler and got my heart caught in my throat once more.

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Five of Knives & The Navigator from The Slow Holler Tarot

I received a very interesting rendition of the Five of Swords and my birth card in the form of The Navigator. As always, when your birth card shows up, it’s best to pay close attention. Continue reading

Birth Card Love: New Visionings of The Emperor

Siobhan of Siobhan’s Mirror has an awesome post up regarding The Emperor as the “protector of creative rebellion” (right?!) and it is magical and lyrical as is her way. As is the version of the Tarot de Marseilles referenced.

Lately I’ve seen the Emperor as the keeper of creative rebellion. Creativity is not always welcome in the practical particle world. Well-meaning people teach us to focus on the hierarchy and to fit. They teach us that it’s dangerous to do otherwise. They want to protect us. They may well be right. And so it becomes necessary to crusade for creative spaces. For vulnerability and connection. To wear our worldviews like so much armor and to grasp what keeps them safe – time, space, sense of self worth – and wield these things for ourselves instead of the world of our forebearers. We must be ready to transform: particles when we need to protect the gentler parts of ourselves, the parts that prioritize vulnerability and connection; waves when we need to dissolve into transpersonal limitless potential.

How did she get to this vision? Read the full post at Little Red Tarot!

Meditative Tarot Tea: The Emperor

THE EMPEROR

wp-1459813638454.jpgCard is The Emperor from The Wooden Tarot

Blended to ground you in holding on to your self-confidence and inner power; perfect for when you need guidance to reassert yourself from an overwhelming situation or maintain your equanimity.

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Breathe-Shift-(Peel)(Shed)-Flow-Renew

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1. What calls attention to my [specific chakra/energy center/focal point/circumstance] at this time? MOTHER OF SEAS [reversed] – With this part of myself on low power, it is hard for me to see where I’m going or even trying to go. Moreover, I’m unable to see myself as worthy, capable, confident for what I need to do. My perception is being skewed by what everyone else is thinking of me. Over-reliance on what others see, good and bad, means that I cannot move for myself, acknowledge for myself. It’s been a while since I’ve been here, but I understand that my solar plexus chakra is my life’s work in as much as it is the heart of my healing practice. I give to others, what do I leave for my own healing?

          2. What do I need to breathe out to unblock the flow of positive energy? LILITH (Power – The Emperor). My birth card always comes through when things are crucial. I’m a bit pained that it showed up in the part of the spread I need to release, but then again there’s always been a side to this card that clearly defined my shadow aspects. Where the rigidity, pride, and stubbornness of The Emperor left me moving from the place of my lowest vibration. She shows up in this spread on her side, not a place of power but more of surrender. I’ve just let things happen to me for too long, but I also need to very carefully evaluate what exactly it is that I need to stop happening to allow for what I want to happen… scratch that, what I need to do to make it happen, this is about strength of will after all.
          3. What do I need to breathe in to encourage the flow of positive energy? MAIDEN OF WIND (CLARITY) [reversed] – This spread is so much about seeing and knowing in a different way. Inverted, the art of Maiden of Wind is all about the fierce golden eagle ancestor guide. What might it mean to see through the eagle and not my just rely on my own aim? Recently, with startling frequency, I’m being asked to look outside of my narrow view and see with the eyes of those wiser, older, ancestor. Not an easy thing with my control issues, but that’s part of the release my birth card came to warn me about.

                        4. What additional guidance is there to invite balance and stability of flow? SEVEN OF FIRE (Courage) – It’s interesting that the image normally found in STRENGTH is showing up instead in this suit. Except here, the lion and the maiden aren’t on the same side. A different kind of strength is called for, it’s courage. I can’t help but feel like the lion and the maiden are the same being, just trying to find their way to evolving up to the Strength card. Confronting inner demons, as it were, inner shadows, facing up and forward. The hardest work but equally the most rewarding.

Haven’t I been here before?

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I pulled the 10 of Disks from the Motherpeace Tarot with a question marking my current space in spiritual health. As much as I was the mother giving birth, I am the child being birthed.

We cycle back and forth through our healing, often healing the same spaces over and over. Perhaps it is that we have to peel the hurt and harm back, layer after layer, and it takes a while before we can come back. Sometimes it’s even that we grew back our layers of hurt and harm and yeah, we do the work over.

Not that it’s hopeless. Anyone paying attention to nature shows that it isn’t so. We shed to renew. This and that layer, and our current skin sustains as until it doesn’t, until it no longer serves us and then back to peeling we go. I won’t pretend that at times it isn’t an ugly, disgusting, sometimes even painful process- and the fresh layer is often raw, exposed, but it is our sacred growth cycle.

And when we settle into our skin we are radiant, renewed, and beautiful.

me, in reverse and other birth card notes

I came home from work, sat by my cards, and turned over the card that called me.

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My birth card in reverse.

I’ve learned to observe this as a heads up from the universe that I need to slow down and realign. Or I’m going to get slowed down and realigned.

Pay close attention when your birth card shows up. Often there’s a very particular message to be acknowledged.

I’m not kidding, last time my birth card showed up in reverse it was in a reading warning me I was overextended. Stubborn as can be, I changed nothing about my energy expenditure. I was in hospital the next week and laid up in sickbed for two more.

Of course, it will not always be so dire, but in reverse it is a strong heads up to examine the parts of your life your reading referenced!

Upright, your birth card, depending on the reading’s context, calls attention to an aspect of yourself to pay attention to, maybe even a potential victory.

Principles of Call & Response, using the cardinal conditions spread

wpid-20150805_174314-1.jpgI pulled this spread when going into a potentially difficult conversation with someone. I knew I had a history of approaching this relationship from a place of lack and pain and wanting, and I also realized that I would have to maintain my perspective, self-belief, and boundaries in order to be even remotely present as we spoke.

The conversation went relatively well and as expected, and a lot of that was because I’d been meditating on my expectations and boundaries and the way they showed up in this spread- as if Spirit was showing me how the universe works on a method of Call and Response.

1. The Whole – Who are you in this situation?
SACRED LAW/CROW WOMAN (STRENGTH) – “Crow teaches you to honor your boundaries”. A lot of what I needed to hold myself in this conversation was this exactly, to define my boundaries for both me and my conversant and to understand from where I came in alignment with my “highest understanding of sacred truth”. It was also about doing what was right, and having this conversation was a matter of protocol and realigning. It even shows up in Libra, my birth sign.

2. The Mental – What are your mental conditions/concerns?
9 of FIRE (WANDS) – “Aspects of your essence that have long laid dormant are now surfacing for full expression. Dominant personality traits are falling away as your being integrates with the Source of who you are. You are now on the path of communion and wholeness, so that you may live in integrity and cohesive power in all that you do.” Basically.

3. The Emotional – What are your emotional conditions/concerns?
POWER/LILITH (EMPEROR) – I love it when my birth card shows up. It reads like trusting my own core power and trusting that I have a right to whatever I feel in this situation.

4. The Material – What are your material/practical conditions/concerns?
9 of EARTH (PENTACLES) – This was directly in line with my concerns- namely what my access to a particular community will be as a result of this conversation.

5. The Spirit – What are your spiritual conditions/concerns?
THE SUN/AMATERASU – That everything be clear, and the truth be absolute.

I looked at the picture of this spread right before and leading up to my conversation and it kept me on task. It went as expected and I held my boundaries and peace firmly. Call and response.

Tens Across the Board

There is very little that sends me running from my tarot spread like the Ten of Swords and the Ten of Wands. So imagine how I felt when I drew and got not one but both Tens.

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card layout & order: (3. clarification) (1. one card draw) (2. clarification)

Unfortunately, I left the spread where it was without much meditation went about my day like it hadn’t happen. Just, nope! Not thinking about it. That was sometime last week. If there is one thing I’ve learned about Spirit is that what was meant to be said will be said again and again if the need is urgent enough. So looking to do a daily draw tonight, and purposely using the Mythical Goddess Tarot because I wanted a deck infused with love and clarity, I laid out my spread. Then I just had to laugh and go make some more chamomile-lavender tea because you know what, FML.

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card order & layout: (3) (1) (2)

What I did appreciate was the difference in the tone of the message here. It was less “get your shit together as of yesterday!” and more “okay, so it’s a bit rough going but here’s the plan”. Which honestly, when you’re in a down sort of place, you’re more likely to listen to.

#1: What am I seeking/working towards?
Power – Lilith (4 – The Emperor) –
one of my birth cards

#2: What will I require to achieve this goal?
Balance (2 of Swords)

#3: What is blocking me right now from this path?
Self-Destruction (10 of Wands)

An understanding reading that also invites my own understanding. This I can deal with. One of these days I’ll go a whole month without pulling these two Tens for myself. One of these days. After a lot of work and healing. One of these days.