ecstatically loving the high priestess within

Oshun and Yemaya all up and through my reading asking me to examine how I show love to myself. Is it a love of condition and requirement, or one of freedom and infinite passion?

What might it mean to seek ecstasy for ourselves?

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The love we give to ourselves shouldn’t be one of distance and propriety. It isn’t some abstract thought or idea far-fetched and unreachable knowable only in the mind. It should be an earthy warm sensual thing felt body deep and life-givingly fed by water.

Alexis Pauline Gumbs writes, love is lifeforce. So how do you give yourself life?

 


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looking back. looking forward.

So the one good thing we have going for us as teachers (besides the fulfillment of raising up young minds, yada yada yada) is summer break. We are guaranteed a good two months off  work during peak holiday season. Anyway, my first year teaching high school just came to a close and it’s been a hell of a  ride. On a whim, newly downloaded tarot app in phone, I pulled a spread asking about the energies around my work life now that I’m finally coming to a pause. I still a bit stunned at the accuracy.

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Past, Present, Future spread from The Golden Thread Tarot app

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Be Still & Know

First reading with this deck, and it’s pretty in line with everything I learned about it in the deck interview. I’ve had a series of occurences and happenings this week that have basically felt like the universe saying, fuck the world, stay home and chill. Unfortunately little things like, work and school don’t really listen to all of that self-care stuff.

To which the universe responded with, how about a severe cold to lay you out?

Did that not work? How about you lock your keys in your car?

You still feeling up and about? How about you leave your wallet at home so all errands suddenly become irrelevant and mildly criminal  a la driving with no ID?

You still acting brand new, huh? How about I set an important appointment that requires you to wait through a couple of other things that you wanted to do?

You still wanna go? Your appointment fell through, but it may happen tomorrow, maybe… how about you have to stay home and wait to find out?

Needless to say I’m staying in bed this weekend, and all food will be delivered to me.

Especially when the reading comes through like this.

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[[You have too much going on mentally, that’s probably where your headache is coming from, you can’t see where your going like this. Breathe, open your eyes and trust your intuition. Look at the whole perspective, feel supported when that gut-deep knowledge comes. That’s when you’ll move in the energy of wisdom again.]]

Engaging the Celtic Cross

Okay, so my least favorite spread has to be the Celtic Cross. Sacrilege, I know. I guess part of the reason I’m so averse to it is the fact that it is so popular and so sought.

On what to consult the CC for, I’ve had both sides- specific questions or a general map of where you’re at in the moment and where you might go. Personally, I won’t do more than one CC a month. I just don’t think that the bounty of information given shifts circumstances in a couple of days or weeks. I like it for a once in a moon check in, maybe even once a quarter. I also never ask a specific question beyond something to the effect of, “Okay, so tell me about where I’m at and where I’m going in the next 30 days or so”. Sacrilege, again, I know. I just prefer to save my specific questions for just about any other spread but this one. Mostly because I feel that the traditional keys for the spread are too specific to look for more than is already given and I don’t want to miss anything out of a tunnel vision approach.

Anyway, that’s my spiel, here’s my reading:

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  1. PRESENT: THREE OF STONES/WANDS – I’m intuiting a balanced foresight, this is a card that has me looking into my future, looking for what is next. It is also reading as a card of inaction, which while not necessarily a bad thing I’m just looking into the horizon and wondering what steps to take next. Which can be an indication it’s about time to get myself moving.
  2. CROSSES/CHALLENGES: TEN OF BONES/PENTACLES – A preoccupation with achievement and success, with being established in a position or place, which makes sense considering the next card.
  3. PAST: THE HIEROPHANT – I’ve just graduated, and have lost the sense of structure and stability that environment provided despite its various stresses. I’m looking to get to the next stable stage of my life, perhaps too fast as life doesn’t always work that way. Moreover, it’s been indicated that my journey suddenly won’t.
  4. FUTURE: KNIGHT OF STONES/WANDS – Perhaps a suggestion that impulsive and creative decisions/steps will be necessary for what’s coming. I’m leaving for a trip this week that will be absolutely beneficiary to me particularly regarding all the things the wands suit is associated with- energy, vitality, fire, creativity- I made the decision to go on this trip jumping in without seeing how far the bottom was- and while this particular trip might not necessarily relate to this card, it’s an example of what energy I might need to flow in. Hmm, maybe I’ll draw for this trip with the Knight of Wands as a focus and see what I might look out for.
  5. GOALS: FOUR OF PLUMES/SWORDS – Gaining perspective; an affirmation of my vision.
  6. SUBCONSCIOUS/DESIRES/UNDERLYING INFLUENCES: THE HIGH PRIESTESS – I’m really enjoying the stillness I’m in right now even if at the back of my mind is obligation and responsibility nagging at me. On the flip side, achieving the kind of balance and wisdom indicated by The High Priestess is my constant desire. To understand myself, gain trust in my intuition and to be completely comfortable in my own skin. Four of Swords is evident in this card too. This CC spread is really flowing here today.
  7. ADVICE/RECOMMENDATION/APPROACH: THE DEVIL – Obsession: bad. Got it. Easy to hear this message, harder to let things go. This is an ongoing theme for me.
  8. ENVIRONMENT/EXTERNAL INFLUENCES: FIVE OF STONES/WANDS – Well I need to remove myself from these circumstances STAT. It is true, there is a lot of discord and dissonance around me right now. Some of it my own mess, some of it others, and the rest out of my control. I’m also experiencing setbacks and letting these derail me is not the answer.
  9. HOPES/FEARS: QUEEN OF STONES/WANDS – To be one day self-assured, balanced in my natural power, and energetic in my work. A surety of self.
  10. OUTCOME/RESULTS: KNIGHT OF BONES/PENTACLES – Which is interesting as the outcome is Knight of Pentacles, which gives me vibes of being too stuck in particular ways. A bit too dogged. Perhaps a warning that the flip side of the knight, the more careful, tireless aspect is needed to realign this outcome into more of a Queen of Wands energy? While also retaining fire, and an ability to allow flexibility.

Hmm. Definitely a spread to meditate on some more.

Deck Interview: Grounded In Conversation w/ The Herbal Tarot

Received the idea from the littleredtarot blog, I don’t know how it didn’t occur to me to be the first thing I do with a tarot deck. Ask the deck what I’m to learn from it! The questions are the same but the layout modified to my own preferences as per my intuition.

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1.Tell me about yourself. What is your most important characteristic?
PAGE OF SWORDS (Dill) – this deck comes to me at a time where I’m facing challenge and upheaval and must be at the ready with answers. However, this deck will provide answers where it is meant to and guidance should I choose to be attentive and do the necessary work in the spirit of honesty, perseverance, and truth. There is much to be learned should I accept the challenges for what they are, potential lessons. This is an exciting prospect, if a bit anxiety inducing, but it’s in line with where I am and affirms my rather impulse buy of this deck, and why it’s been so well tuned so far. I also love that it feels like it wants to grow with me. I bet a year from now, I ask it these same questions and its lessons will have evolved- or rather I will have- to match my situation.

2. What are your strengths as a deck?
ACE OF SWORDS (Chamomile) – Notably, chamomile is one of my ‘peace, be still’ herbs. As such it’s always chamomile tea if I need to quiet myself or cool my tendency to fire. In any case, on to the card reading- this is obviously a continuation of the first question. There is truth and knowledge to be found through this deck, but it will require my being attentive and willing to do the work as I move through a rather trying transition period. Support is offered should I seek it and use it.

3. What are your limits as a deck?
THE HIGH PRIESTESS (Peony) (REVERSE) – I’ll admit this one is hard to accept. The work I’ll have to do is internal work, work that ironically requires more stillness than action. Not all my answers will be here, but in meditation with myself in order to get through these challenges. I have the tools with me, I just need to have enough of a care to look. It is a message I’ve received before, be still and move with the necessary flow.

4. What are you here to teach me?
FIVE OF PENTACLES (Mugwort) (REVERSE) – Again with the lessons on getting through setbacks and struggles. I get it! I get it! It’s here for me. I must look to the abundance in the gifts from the earth. That and it is temporary, these lows are temporary.

5. How can I best learn and collaborate with you?
THE EMPRESS (Dong Quai) (REVERSE) – Yes, that thing about abundance and the earth’s gifts? No, really. This is the herbal tarot, and I was drawn to it for that reason. All my medicine comes from the earth, as I utilize the deck, I must also remember and use by my medicine.

6. What is the potential outcome of our working relationship?
NINE OF WANDS (Bayberry Bark) – Movement with discernment as well as a strength gained through surviving strife. A knowledge of my own potential awaits me as I learn with this deck.

Whew! Well this journey is going to be even more interesting than I thought.